I am learning to coordinate with other members of the body and as i learn i continue to be reduced. ytd i joined nehemiah and colleen for an appointment in AU. i almost regarded it as my own appointment. itimar was a jew, a hebrew born of hebrews. their whole family could be gained for Tel Aviv! hving listened to the 96 lessons training, i was keen to put this knowledge into action. i wanted to do something for the Lord. i wanted this young man saved. he was young. he had yrs to be used by the Lord. there is so much potential. wht a vessel.

 

in the appointment, i wanted to make progress with this contact. i was slightly unhappy with the fact tht there was hardly any gap for me to speak. paul hong n solomon's words jst kept repeating in my head n they became my critisism. "when we c any sign of affirmation, we lead them to the Lord"- tht means the nods, the smiles, the red eyes. also "every appointment is for the next appointment", "don't dump-truck them". there were so many words swirling ard in my head n i wanted to tell them. i suggested these ideas to them after the appointment when itimar was gone. there were changes tht i think could be made but i duno if it's appropriate to say anything. i've forgotten tht it was their campus n he was their contact. they hv seen for 3 yrs n they knw his condition better than me. i shd not assume tht i knw anything. i was being young n impulsive n i wanted to c results. i've almost forgotten tht my brother had 12 years experience serving the Lord, n my sister is has served the Lord for a long time. they hv seen saints gradually get saved over a gd number of yrs. they r not myopic like me. there was no rush in gaining new ones.

 

there was so much i wanted to say, but for everything i said there was a defence against me. so i learnt to be quite.i wasn't happy because i wanted to be respected. the self in me was rising up saying "i want to be recognised". i needed to be humbled n not to think more highly of myself than i ought to think. it's surprising tht someone like me can be so deceived by pride.

 

i am only a student n tht's prolly wht most students would think in most campuses. i am so thankful to hv been in dnd with solomon. he humbled himself n would even call the students his "co-workers". wht a brother. he didn't only care for his new one, but he had the heart to train us. Thank You Lord. he cared to teach us how to teach others. he gave us an occupation n encouraged us to function. thank You Lord for this brohter. i am so blessed. thank You Lord. Praise the Lord.

 

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